feel so lucky!

why is it that we were such good friends even when we were in different classes, but so distant like strangers/enemies as soon as we were in the same class? even if this was what we hoped for?

posted @ 7:40 PM

Monday, June 13, 2011

Well. I actually won't post stuffs here if it weren't for the fact that this blog is super dead. And this blog wasn't so lively as when it was first created. I know that. Not that I have anything HAPPY to post about. This year is like a year where things go DOWNHILL... Way down. For starters, my results. THEY.ARE.NOT.GOOD.AT.ALL. I mean I guess one reason is that this is my first time suddenly taking so many subjects and I have yet to adapt to this kind of school life. Okay. I am gonna be like ___ and study real hard. Cannot afford to slack. at all. And second...friendship. Not like I want this to be an open thing but this is what a blog is for right? To express yourself and all the stuffs that are bottled up inside you. Well yeah back to my point. I really don't know why but my friendships between my ex-good friends just all of a sudden,like overnight, goes downhill. One moment I thought I could have them in my life as good friends(forever?). But NO. I can't comprehend why and how they just suddenly give me the cold shoulder and treat me like some reject/enemy. Not gonna mention any names here but yeah. Everything was going fine up till like this year where they just suddenly turn their backs on me and abandon me and kick me aside like some toy that you are bored with. Another reason why I miss primary school so much. Things weren't so bad at that time and I still had close friends to hang out with,talk to,turn to,play with like badminton...Plus I still remember the concern they shower me with last time. Like we were so close as friends that we were almost like,sisters. Even last year they still treated me nice and were friendly. We might not be talking in person but even in text messages they were still friendly like the same old friend. But now is like they don't cherish this friendship with me anymore... Okay I might have committed some major mistakes that I may not have noticed that upsets or annoys them. But like friends we should forgive and forget. And that's what I am trying to do now. But apparently no one seems to notice that and they are continuing to ignore me like I never existed. Why this year 2011? Is it a year of bad friendship luck for me? Well I don't know and I don't give a damn. What's important is that I do well in studies. And maybe get a good career in future. Earn loads of money...Right now it is really entirely up to my ex-friends to decide whether they want to permenantly severe ties with me or whether they need some sort of cooling-off period before talking things out with me and probably getting back together as friends again like good times.

Well what else can i say or do? Nothing. Unless there was some miracle to turn my friendship luck around such that I reconcile with all my past friends.

Okay that's all I can say. All I hope for is to get my friends back. Whatever the reason is for treating me this way. Period

posted @ 4:17 PM

Friday, March 25, 2011

I really can't stand your nonsense anymore. And not to mention your bitching about me all the time and saying that i pist you off and other shit. And when i said i pist you off,you still act so calm then towards others you start bitching and complaining like shit. I really can't stand your crappiness.
Still bitch that I am behind all your friendship problems and go on and on about blaming me for everything. And you also said that I am the one who is not talking to you and blahblahblah. Let me ask you. Previously on Facebook when i TRIED talking it out with you,who was the one who DIDN'T FEEL LIKE TALKING AT ALL? It's YOU.NOT ME. And now that friendship problems happen,you push ALL the freaking blame to me and say that I was the one not talking to you. Whatthef*** okay? You keep saying i pist you off. THEN WHY THE HELL DON'T YOU WANNA TALK TO ME ABOUT IT? I RATHER YOU CONFRONT ME ABOUT IT INSTEAD OF BITCHING TO OTHERS ABOUT IT. When i ask you you keep acting so calm and cool and also keep saying that I am not the one you are angry at. What nonsense. Then why do you bitch about me? And say I am the bitch? Saddist? Feels good giving ppl SHITTY nicknames huh? GO TO HELL. I really feel like screaming F*** in your face. Go get a life.
If you are not happy,then just freaking say so. STOP bitching about me already. AND FYI I don't bitch about you. I NEVER use YOu as a subject topic for conversation. I'm not so free and bored to talk about you. Only when someone talks to me about you,I will just respond accordingly. And STOP calling me bitch when YOU are the f***ing idiotic bitchy asshole. You want to compete in who can be more vulgar? Fine. Try me. Just you see.
And don't try to make everything sound like it's not serious at all. So it is YOUR problem. YOU REAP WHAT YOU SOW. Heard of that?
I just wish all this bitching will END. Cuz trust me,you are pisting my ASS OFF. At least I don't bitch about you or call you BITCH. You bitching about me does NOT equal to you being the bitch. Please get this in your head. But after how you responded to me, I think those two equate. And i am VERY SURE you forgot your promise you made to me on Facebook. I still have the evidence,mind you. I got my hopes too high then. I really shouldn't have. Can't believe you broke your promise time and time again. You seemed so earnest in changing and reconciling with me. But NO. You completely change right after that conversation. You have split personality is it? Your attitude is always changing. I really cannot understand why. Your friend is already hanging out with someone else and yet you still want to treat your ex-friends like shit. It is hard to believe we are once BEst Friends. Cuz come to think of it, i didn't know how that was possible,judging from the current situation. You might be angrier at someone else but you bitch much more about me and not the other party. If you really won't quit it, then i will make me bitching about you obvious. I will bitch about you near you or loudly. How's that?
OKAY i shall not waste my time writing out all the shit you put me through. I should not be pist at a bitch like you. End of story.

posted @ 6:51 PM

Friday, January 14, 2011

For a moment I felt better that you were willing to put everything behind us and start anew. Perhaps I reacted too early. On the phone you did sound sort of normal and all. And I thought well maybe this was going to work out. But I was wrong. The whole "putting everything behind us" thing and promise only lasted half an hour while we were happily talking on the phone. LIttle did I know after that it seemed like we never had the conversation nor did you ever make that promise at all. To make things worse it was during CCA Fair. I wanted to follow you down to the station since I didn't know where it was. You had the cheek to ignore me and just carry on talking to your other friend like I wasn't even standing there. You also made me wait there and did NOT tell ME where the station was. Excuse me but I'm sure you don't understand what does YOU telling ME means. FYI you didn't tell ME. YOu told your friend. And I guessed it was so that you two could meet up again. Just because I was standing at the side does NOT mean it was YOU telling ME. Whether I overheard your words also did NOT mean that YOu told ME. Please get that straight.
You could also tell me "You didn't have to wait for me". HELLO? It was so obvious you were trying to get rid of me so that you can have some alone time with your new best friend. Like I was being super extra standing there. And true enough even when I was at the station all the time it's like you acted like I wasn't there at all and talked to others and not me. You even could go look for your friend and stroll and chat, leaving me behind with the seniors. I was really like some idiot standing there, hoping that you would talk it out with me. Can't believe I was so stupid to think that way when such a thing was IMPOSSIBLE for you. I know you are going to say something like " I didn't mean it". But haven't you heard of "THINK BEFORE YOU ACT". I mean like seriously?
You keep giving that reason/excuse. IN the first place why don't you try to change? NOw you are starting to treat your friend like how you treated me when we were best friends. And now it's the reverse. I am a noone to you and probably got replaced by her. You could still assure me before that she can't replace me as your buddy...
But apparently things aren't looking that way to me... SOmetimes I feel so angered I feel like crying out loud all the sorrows. But I guess it's all worthless now. Nothing changes a thing now.
She is your best friend , I am no one. Alright since you want it that, so be it. Hope your friendship is everlasting.

posted @ 6:46 PM

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Happy New Year! Today is already the start of the new year 2011. SO FAST MAN. Time passes in a blink of an eye! :O Still can't believe it.
Anyway, school is starting next week! OH NO. Get ready to become dead zombies when you get to school. There will be many all around. Sighs. SChool blues.
Well, 2010 has been a rather eventful year with good and bad things occurring. I rather not state them. So yeah. DOn't want to bring it up again. I mean HEY! It's already a new year. And I wanna start this year afresh and anew. So I ain't gonna look back at the past. Just move on and look forward to the year ahead.
Hmm. Not much of a celebration for New Year. Usually in previous years I can hear people screaming in the middle of the night from my block. But it was unusually quiet last night. O.o
Not to mention I used to stay up till midnight and scream "HAPPY NEW YEAR!" with my family members. But now it's like "oh heck care. Going to go sleep" i am no exception. HEHE.
And for Christmas, there was a mini celebration. There was pasta, turkey, fried noodles, soup, log cake, and brownies! :D YUM. As for presents I did receive a couple here and there. Separately. Rather pleasant ones though. But it's the thought that counts! So I am grateful:)
Well nothing else to post now. Happy New Year everyone!

Emelyn

posted @ 5:03 PM

Monday, December 27, 2010

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE!! :)
I know I am kinda late in saying that now but anyway. Better late than never! HAHA.
And also cuz I was too lazy to update my blog the past few days. So yeah.
I am not a person who is constantly uploading blogs. Just too lazy or don't know what to write.-.- Like seriously.
OH NO. SCHOOL IS STARTING NEXT WEEK!!! ARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am not ready to go back to school! Mainly cuz I don't know what is ahead of me in the year 2011. D: I also don't know how it will be like next year...:/
Sighs... Oh well never mind.
Okay got nothing now. HEHEHE.

Emelyn

posted @ 5:17 PM

Monday, October 18, 2010

HI ALL.
It has been a really long time since i blogged. Well at least exams are now over. YAY!~
Still boring if not for the fact that i have books to drown myself in apart from using the com. Tried using com for the whole day but became tired...
UM...Ran out of ideas on what to write right now.
Oh Something wrong with my freaking blog page!!! Can't even view it. I just click view Blog and the page is blank and it doesn't load. O.O GAH.
Dammit.
Bored~
GOnna go back to readinggg...
Emelyn

posted @ 4:33 PM